I knew that I was cursed ever since my day of birth
first it was my uncle from the nurse unto his caddie hearse
foreseen a lot of shit at first it was a blessing,
betting homies at my school, for money, it was so impressive
so oppressive- the world series to the stanley cup
golden jackets, presidents, I never lossed a buck
i made a living off the life that I was given
flipping dollars, any chance i could advance there would be predictions
a night of slobberish debauchery, all sloppily,
I let my secret slip out to some homies that were on to me
their mobster father, was a bookie and a robber
with a pistol in his fist I was the ticket to his lobster
robbing lots of copper placing best nobody stopping us
and more than just a runner, was a number on the roster
i moved to Texas but the hell was just beginning
december 93 thats when mind had started slipping
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I see the future plane crashes and the suicides
newborn babies in the lake- who decides
who should die? who's deserved of protection?
resenting every minute; this inflection
verse 2
fortunately for me they had never followed me
but death is all I see, predictions slowly got to me
head spinning overloaded with the visions
and the guilt of my indifference, indecision- the negative
i reached a point to where the violence became normalized
tried to hide the pain inside my heart but I was terrorized
I seen the lies within the eyes of anyone I loved
and anytime we touched I'd see the hour of demise
decapitated, bladed, ambulances, rambling,
scrambling for meaning, on the cutting floor of demons
screaming, please don't do this to me, consuming,
i started using, abusing, to stop the bleeding I'm seeing
i tie myself off- highly medicated, black tar, fat scars
track marks, in the arms, looking at the stars
up on the balcony like falcons, looking at the cars
i took a leap of death and left my skin, flesh is prison bars
Soul-searching hip-hop from this Florida rapper, with lyrics that dig deep and take an unflinching look at life’s questions. Bandcamp New & Notable May 1, 2023